My journey is changing today
I will begin with a disclaimer/reminder. This is one woman's story of a wonderful and troubled relationship. These are my thoughts and opinions and they are being written "in the moment" and as I am writing this, I do not know where the story will end. I know that my situation needs to change and, ultimately, I can only do that by changing myself. These are the thoughts and feelings that I need to work through to either save my marriage or to have the strength to end it. I will mention some points that have led me here but really this is where I see myself going from passenger on this journey to navigator/driver.
I don't know if it will work.
I don't know how I want the story to end although my husband seeing the light and realizing that I am right (Yes, I am sure that will happen right after I win the lottery!) would not be a bad scenario but seems pretty unlikely.
Instead I am going to try to tame some of the thoughts in my head and make the changes I need to make because I cannot keep on this current path. I am carsick and I need to get out and breathe some fresh air - figuratively, for now.
I do not speak for all women but I have to believe that I am not alone. I guess misery really does love company.
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Thanks for sharing. I love this post. I totally know what you mean by these are your thoughts "in the moment," I have a blog too and so many people don't get it. We aren't writing abt our whole lives, we don't have time for that, these are just in the moment thoughts, and by the time anyone reads this we have moved on to new thoughts, new ideas, etc. This is hard for others to understand and fully grasp. I am with you, as needing to get these thoughts out and not just having them spinning around in our minds. For me blogging/journaling is a type of therapy for me. It helps me to understand myself and helps me to figure out what I want, believe, and helps me to understand myself better.
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